De\u0219i era prea de diminea\u021b\u0103 pentru mine m-am trezit.. Am zis, mno bine, e luni. Mno hai. \u0218i l-am deschis pe primul. \u00cemi era fric\u0103 s\u0103-l deschid \u0219i pe-al doilea. Ochi… La ochi m\u0103 refer! Tu la ce dracu te g\u00e2ndeai? \u00cenc\u0103 respiram. Am \u00eentins m\u00e2na \u0219i parc\u0103 \u00eemi sim\u021beam pl\u0103m\u00e2nul. Era tot acolo. Iar sor-mea \u00eemi spunea s\u0103 am grij\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sunat-o \u0219i pe mama. Da, de la morm\u00e2ntul lu` sor-mea venea. D-aia nici nu r\u0103spundea la telefon. C\u0103, da, telefon d-\u0103la vechi are mama. Apoi mi-am dat seam\u0103 c\u0103-i iar diminea\u021b\u0103. \u0218i c\u0103-i \u0219i luni. Cezar sc\u00e2r\u021b\u00e2ia. Desigur. A nepi\u0219at, desigur. Un oftat, dou\u0103 oftaturi. Ora 8. Sun? Nu sun? Sun\u0103? Nu sun\u0103? Ora 8 \u0219i 22. Vorbeam singur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi am sunat. M\u0103 plictiseam s\u0103 stau cu smartfonul \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 uit la el ca la cupa campionilor pe care \u0219i-o tot doresc rom\u00e2nii \u00een timp ce realizeaz\u0103 c\u0103 nu-l au pe Scaramu\u0219 argintar. \u0218i-o r\u0103spuns, m\u0103. Cumva. Futu-i. Apoi nu avea loc. I-am g\u0103sit, io. \u00centr-un final. La cam dou\u0103 jude\u021be distan\u021b\u0103, dar tot loc bun era \u0219i \u0103la.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi, bluza aia era parc\u0103 prea neagr\u0103 pentru o diminea\u021b\u0103 de luni \u00een care dore\u0219ti prea tare pe cineva. Da, \u0219tiu, dungile de la c\u0103ma\u0219\u0103 n-o l\u0103sau dat\u0103 jos. \u00cen fine, nici \u021big\u0103ri n-avea. I-am dat eu. Brichet\u0103??? Nooo. Ce-i aia?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi, \u00eencet, \u00eenceti\u0219or chiar, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 ne d\u0103m seama de ce tr\u0103im. Am \u00eenceput chiar s\u0103 sim\u021bim tr\u0103itul. Bili era \u00een a\u0219teptare, st\u0103tea suspendat pe castelul cu stele, se tulumb\u0103ia din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd. Cezar mai respira din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd \u0219i-o dat\u0103-n g\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i-am fumat. Mi-a\nfumat chiar \u0219i \u021big\u0103rile. Tricoul de pe mine era de cu ea. Am zis ea? P\u0103i cu ea\neram. Apoi i-am spus s\u0103 tac\u0103. Prea vorbise \u00een ultimele zile. Prea mult am\nvorbit, de fapt, am\u00e2ndoi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi a t\u0103cut. \u0218i eu. \u0218i-au \u00eenceput \u0219oaptele. \u0218i \u0219oaptele nu voiau s\u0103 tac\u0103. Nicicum. Era 10 \u0219i jumate \u0219i noi \u00eencepusem cumva s\u0103 ne fum\u0103m. Nici clipele nu m-ai contau. Treceau ca turbatele. La un moment dat doar genunchii mai tremurau. S-a ridicat. Eu nu. La moll era \u00eenchis. Prea diminea\u021b\u0103 pentru fi\u021be. A\u0219a c\u0103 mi-am tras pe mine acela\u0219i tricou. Da, \u0219tiu, \u0219i ea era tot ea. Dar o iubeam ca \u00een prima zi. Habar n-ai c\u00e2nd a fost prima zi. Nici eu. Urechi, picioare \u00eentinse, cafea. \u0218i pielea parc\u0103 nu mai era ea. Eram scur\u0219i. Eram cumva. C\u0103 tot vorbim cumva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne pip\u0103iam tr\u0103irile. \u00cenc\u0103 ne sorbeam tremuratul. Apoi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 ne d\u0103m seama c\u0103 tr\u0103im. Din nou. De fapt, tr\u0103isem, dar ireal. \u0218i am \u00eenceput cu realul. Cumva, desigur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lumea \u00eencepea s\u0103 devin\u0103 palpabil\u0103, noi iubibili, cumva. \u0218i tremuratul… Mi-e \u0219i fric\u0103 s\u0103 simt… Palmele mele ce form\u0103 aveau? \u00cen form\u0103 de via\u021b\u0103. \u0218tii cum e s\u0103 sim\u021bi via\u021ba? Tremur\u0103 \u0219i curge. De fapt, cred c\u0103 a\u0219a am reu\u0219it s\u0103 cunosc \u0219i eu via\u021ba. \u0218i ne eram at\u00e2t de suficien\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i crucea nu mai avea forma crucii. Mnez\u0103u parc\u0103 era dracul. Diminea\u021ba parc\u0103 era orice, dar nu diminea\u021b\u0103. Vecinii erau ciuli\u021bi. \u0218i farmaciile s-au \u00eenchis. Nu aveau ce s\u0103 mai v\u00e2nd\u0103. \u0218i nu m\u0103 refer aici la aspirin\u0103, fraiere, ci la pic\u0103turile de via\u021b\u0103. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi… Desigur, apoi. Piele \u0219i r\u0103sf\u0103\u021b. Palme \u0219i degete. Mai ales degete care r\u0103sfa\u021b\u0103. Am \u0219i citit \u00een diminea\u021ba aia, fraierule. Sau fraier\u0103? Cu ochii, cu mintea \u0219i cu sim\u021burile. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i, nu, nu am f\u0103cut sex, dac\u0103 la asta te-ai g\u00e2ndit citind p\u00e2n\u0103 acum. Sexul \u00eenseamn\u0103 altceva. Dar despre asta vorbim, poate, \u00een alt\u0103 via\u021b\u0103. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
De\u0219i era prea de diminea\u021b\u0103 pentru mine m-am trezit.. Am zis, mno bine, e luni. Mno hai. \u0218i l-am deschis pe primul. \u00cemi era fric\u0103 s\u0103-l deschid \u0219i pe-al doilea. Ochi… La ochi m\u0103 refer! Tu la ce dracu te g\u00e2ndeai? \u00cenc\u0103 respiram. Am \u00eentins m\u00e2na \u0219i parc\u0103 \u00eemi sim\u021beam pl\u0103m\u00e2nul. Era tot acolo. Iar […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":10815,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[864],"tags":[512,1076,832],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"yoast_head":"\n
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